So my brother, Robert, is graduating from KU Medical School in 11 days, just like I'm graduating from KU...so having been through the undergraduate senioritis, Dr. Robert has given me these prescriptions for final semester papers and finals:
For papers:
no matter what the required length is...make it 6 pages, only spend 10 minutes per page (including research, typing, editing), you're done in a hour.
For finals:
[direct quote]
"Uh...final? Hello! This is your last year, if you aren't ready for this final yet, don't worry about it! You can stay up all night partying and still be ok for the test. Here's the rule for finals in your last semester: for every credit hour the class is, that's how many half hours TOTAL you should study for it. So, if it's a 3 hour class, just 1.5 hours studying. and, that includes any time you spend in a review class if they offer it. A corolary to that rule is if you want to raise your grade 1 letter grade, go up to 1 hour studying per hour of class. If you afford to lower your grade 1 letter grade, you can reduce studying to 10 minutes per class hour. Of course, you have to run the math to see how you have to do on the test to raise/lower/keep the same grade. So, this isn't a hard and fast rule like the paper rule is, but it's a good rule of thumb."
Thanks, Dr. Robert...you're the best.
~mitzi
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Monday, May 08, 2006
ho humm...
Today is the anniversary of my grandmother's death. We also had a tornado in Lawrence on that day three years ago. That was my freshman year. Crazy.
Well, I had the third and final Teach for America interview today and now they're checking my references. I'm not trying to get "my hopes up"...but if they were to offer me a position, I would definitely be moving away...to New York or D.C. or Chicago. And I haven't really come to see that in my future...Oh well, I guess we'll see how these next few weeks play out. Gotta keep trusting in the Guy that knows it all. He'll take care of me no matter what.
I'm currently reading Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus. It is very interesting, but I don't think it is really effective if not all people (namely non-married people) read it. I just hate that as a woman, I can do so much work to "get over" a guy and then in a moment, he'll say something and it will occupy my mind for the rest of the evening. Call me an optimist, but I'm always hopeful. And for that split second, I forget all the crud I went through to get back to the happy self I am now, and start focusing on him. Maybe by writing this, I'll start rethinking about how far I've come in the past month especially...but really since February. I just wish I could stay "over" this person...and the silly thing is that he doesn't even know.
Oh well, back to the last paper I'll have to write in my college career! WOOHOO!!!
~mitzi
Well, I had the third and final Teach for America interview today and now they're checking my references. I'm not trying to get "my hopes up"...but if they were to offer me a position, I would definitely be moving away...to New York or D.C. or Chicago. And I haven't really come to see that in my future...Oh well, I guess we'll see how these next few weeks play out. Gotta keep trusting in the Guy that knows it all. He'll take care of me no matter what.
I'm currently reading Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus. It is very interesting, but I don't think it is really effective if not all people (namely non-married people) read it. I just hate that as a woman, I can do so much work to "get over" a guy and then in a moment, he'll say something and it will occupy my mind for the rest of the evening. Call me an optimist, but I'm always hopeful. And for that split second, I forget all the crud I went through to get back to the happy self I am now, and start focusing on him. Maybe by writing this, I'll start rethinking about how far I've come in the past month especially...but really since February. I just wish I could stay "over" this person...and the silly thing is that he doesn't even know.
Oh well, back to the last paper I'll have to write in my college career! WOOHOO!!!
~mitzi
Thursday, May 04, 2006
new focus...
Okay, so before when I was talking about my new focus, I wasn't quite sure what the big G had in mind. Obviously it wasn't memorizing the lyrics to "Lazy Sunday"..although, I still might. For some reason, God decided to have my mother fractured her right hip the day before my dad was to leave for the rest of the week and a day before my mother was suppose to begin caring for my niece as her parents travelled to WI for a house closing.
That being said in the shortest way possible, I'm at home caring for both my niece and my mom until Sunday. I'm think that maybe medical practice is the way for me. Or maybe not. Anyhow, for those of you worried...my mom is going to be okay. No surgery needed, thank goodness. She just needs to stay off her feet for a while and rest (something my mom has never done in the 22 years I've known her). My niece is doing well. She is just too cute for words, but she is also screaming her head off because some new teeth just broke through her gums. Yeah, just thinking about it makes me cringe just a little. Plus, it's her molars, which I think are the worst. Oh well.
The best part is that I've missed two days of class and work. I was a little worried about the class thing since one of my classes was doing the final review today. However! The class was cancelled for some reason, so I won't miss the review after all! That's God looking out for my grades.
I will miss Coyote's tonight w/ the St. L's crowd and the new additions of Amy, Blair, and Nate...but I don't think Jack or Coke will solve my problems.
I'll also miss Relay for Life tomorrow, which really sucks. It means a lot to my roommate and friend, Amy. So for anyone of you out there who will be at the Relay tomorrow night...give Amy a hug for me. She's done a lot for this cause and deserves a hug! Hugs are great. Hopefully, I'll be able to be there for the luminary vigil...we'll see.
The job thing has new life. My application is on the Archbishop's desk at the Archdiocese, I have an interview w/ Zillner Marketing Communications next week, and now I'm in the final stage of interviews for the Teach for America Recruitment Associate position. Nothing like a new focus to bring other things along. Thanks God! and thanks to Sr. E for making me try to find a new focus...God provides...like always.
I don't mean to get too religious, but for those of you who know me...you probably saw this coming. I started this 30 day prayer to St. Joseph on May Day (his feast day)...and I think that my life is a little like St. Joe's back in the day. Can you imagine caring for Mary and the infant Jesus? Whoa. I'm not saying that my mom and Mary Ann are either of these two...and I am certainly not as patient as Joseph...but looking out for both of them just got me thinking. What a special man Joseph was and what an awesome saint he is today!
~mitzi
That being said in the shortest way possible, I'm at home caring for both my niece and my mom until Sunday. I'm think that maybe medical practice is the way for me. Or maybe not. Anyhow, for those of you worried...my mom is going to be okay. No surgery needed, thank goodness. She just needs to stay off her feet for a while and rest (something my mom has never done in the 22 years I've known her). My niece is doing well. She is just too cute for words, but she is also screaming her head off because some new teeth just broke through her gums. Yeah, just thinking about it makes me cringe just a little. Plus, it's her molars, which I think are the worst. Oh well.
The best part is that I've missed two days of class and work. I was a little worried about the class thing since one of my classes was doing the final review today. However! The class was cancelled for some reason, so I won't miss the review after all! That's God looking out for my grades.
I will miss Coyote's tonight w/ the St. L's crowd and the new additions of Amy, Blair, and Nate...but I don't think Jack or Coke will solve my problems.
I'll also miss Relay for Life tomorrow, which really sucks. It means a lot to my roommate and friend, Amy. So for anyone of you out there who will be at the Relay tomorrow night...give Amy a hug for me. She's done a lot for this cause and deserves a hug! Hugs are great. Hopefully, I'll be able to be there for the luminary vigil...we'll see.
The job thing has new life. My application is on the Archbishop's desk at the Archdiocese, I have an interview w/ Zillner Marketing Communications next week, and now I'm in the final stage of interviews for the Teach for America Recruitment Associate position. Nothing like a new focus to bring other things along. Thanks God! and thanks to Sr. E for making me try to find a new focus...God provides...like always.
I don't mean to get too religious, but for those of you who know me...you probably saw this coming. I started this 30 day prayer to St. Joseph on May Day (his feast day)...and I think that my life is a little like St. Joe's back in the day. Can you imagine caring for Mary and the infant Jesus? Whoa. I'm not saying that my mom and Mary Ann are either of these two...and I am certainly not as patient as Joseph...but looking out for both of them just got me thinking. What a special man Joseph was and what an awesome saint he is today!
~mitzi
Monday, May 01, 2006
fall back plan...
So it is looking more and more likely that I won't have a job come graduation, but I have a fall back plan. I'm not quite sure how it will work out exactly...funding and such, but it just might work!
The other night at a rainy "bonfire", my friend Blair and I were discussing what seems to be the problem with us...we are good people, great personality, intelligent...but somehow are still not noticed by the opposite sex for whatever reason. We are sure there are other women out there who feel the same way and therefore, we have decided that if our career plans fall through we will begin "Project Sabrina". The company name came from the famed Audrey Hepburn and Humphrey Bogart movie, where the main character "Sabrina" who is smitten with a man (played by William Holden) who "doesn't even know I exist" -- until she goes away to Paris for two years, and returns an elegant, sophisticated, beautiful woman.
Okay, so the company would arrange for this hiatus of two years to a foreign country for women who should be noticed, but are not...make sense? Probably not and even as I'm writing this I am seeing several issues with the whole thing. In the movie, Bogart's character always treats Sabrina with respect even before she goes to Paris and so at least "notices" her...but it isn't until he sees that she is smited by his younger brother (Holden) that he realizes that there might be something else there...
Okay, so maybe I should just plan on a career elsewhere...we'll see. But come on "Project Sabrina"...the title at least is genius! hmmm.
~mitzi
The other night at a rainy "bonfire", my friend Blair and I were discussing what seems to be the problem with us...we are good people, great personality, intelligent...but somehow are still not noticed by the opposite sex for whatever reason. We are sure there are other women out there who feel the same way and therefore, we have decided that if our career plans fall through we will begin "Project Sabrina". The company name came from the famed Audrey Hepburn and Humphrey Bogart movie, where the main character "Sabrina" who is smitten with a man (played by William Holden) who "doesn't even know I exist" -- until she goes away to Paris for two years, and returns an elegant, sophisticated, beautiful woman.
Okay, so the company would arrange for this hiatus of two years to a foreign country for women who should be noticed, but are not...make sense? Probably not and even as I'm writing this I am seeing several issues with the whole thing. In the movie, Bogart's character always treats Sabrina with respect even before she goes to Paris and so at least "notices" her...but it isn't until he sees that she is smited by his younger brother (Holden) that he realizes that there might be something else there...
Okay, so maybe I should just plan on a career elsewhere...we'll see. But come on "Project Sabrina"...the title at least is genius! hmmm.
~mitzi
Friday, April 28, 2006
passion...
After a little spiritual d w/ Sister E, I suppose find something to focus on...since neither the job thing nor the relationship thing are doing anything in my life...so I need to focus on a new passion or an old one...something that will occupy my mind, my body, my soul so that I stop comparing myself to others (people who have jobs or relationships...or both). So here's what I got:
I really enjoy memorizing lyrics, I guess you could say it's my thing...any song really...I'll look up the lyrics on line and memorize them so that I can sing along correctly. Raps are always fun...not the trashy ones, but ones like "Ice, Ice Baby". Not that it is not "trashy"...but at least the language is permissable. So what is the new song/rap/diddy that I would like to master?
Yep, so if you would like to join me: here's the lyrics...
Lazy Sunday, wake up in the late afternoon.
Call Parnell just to see how he’s doin’.
Hello?
What up, Parns?
Yo Samberg, what’s crackin’?
You thinking what I’m thinkin?
NARNIA.
Man, it’s happenin’.
But first my hunger pains are stickin’ like duct tape.
Let’s hit up Magnolia and mack on some cupcakes.
No doubt that bakery’s got all da bomb frostins.
I love those cupcakes like McAdams loves Gosling.
Two, no six, no twelve, BAKERS DOZEN.
I told you that I’m crazy for these cupcakes, cousin.
Yo, where’s the movie playin’?
Upper west side, dude.
Well, let’s hit up Yahoo Maps to find the dopest route.
I prefer Map Quest.
That’s a good one, too.
Google Maps is the best.
True that.
DOUBLE TRUE.
68th and Broadway.
Step on it, sucka.
What you wanna do, Chris?
SNACK ATTACK, ************
It’s the Chronic (what?)
Cles of Narnia
Yes, the Chronic (what?)
Cles of Narnia
We love that Chronic (what?)
Cles of Narnia
Pass that Chronic (what?)
Cles of Narnia
Yo, stop at the deli.
The theater’s over-priced.
You’ve got the backpack?
Gonna pack it up nice.
Don’t want security to get suspicious.
Mr. Pibb and Red Vines equals CRAZY DELICIOUS!
I’ll reach in my pocket, pull out some dough.
Girl actin’ like she never seen a $10 before.
It’s all about the Hamiltons, baby.
Throw the snacks in a bag and I’m ghost like Swayze.
Roll up to the theater.
Ticket buying, what we’re handlin’.
You can call us Aaron Burr.
From the way we’re droppin’ Hamiltons.
Now parked in our seats.
Movie trivias the illest.
Which Friends alum starred in films with Bruce Willis?
We answered so fast it was scary.
Everyone stared in awe when we screamed Matthew Perry.
Now quiet in the theater or it’s gonna get tragic.
We’re bout to get taken to a dream world of magic with…
the Chronic (what?)
Cles of Narnia
Yes, the Chronic (what?)
Cles of Narnia
We love that Chronic (what?)
Cles of Narnia
Pass that Chronic (what?)
Cles of Narnia
~mitzi
I really enjoy memorizing lyrics, I guess you could say it's my thing...any song really...I'll look up the lyrics on line and memorize them so that I can sing along correctly. Raps are always fun...not the trashy ones, but ones like "Ice, Ice Baby". Not that it is not "trashy"...but at least the language is permissable. So what is the new song/rap/diddy that I would like to master?
Lazy Sunday: Chronic(WHAT)cles of Narnia
Yep, so if you would like to join me: here's the lyrics...
Lazy Sunday, wake up in the late afternoon.
Call Parnell just to see how he’s doin’.
Hello?
What up, Parns?
Yo Samberg, what’s crackin’?
You thinking what I’m thinkin?
NARNIA.
Man, it’s happenin’.
But first my hunger pains are stickin’ like duct tape.
Let’s hit up Magnolia and mack on some cupcakes.
No doubt that bakery’s got all da bomb frostins.
I love those cupcakes like McAdams loves Gosling.
Two, no six, no twelve, BAKERS DOZEN.
I told you that I’m crazy for these cupcakes, cousin.
Yo, where’s the movie playin’?
Upper west side, dude.
Well, let’s hit up Yahoo Maps to find the dopest route.
I prefer Map Quest.
That’s a good one, too.
Google Maps is the best.
True that.
DOUBLE TRUE.
68th and Broadway.
Step on it, sucka.
What you wanna do, Chris?
SNACK ATTACK, ************
It’s the Chronic (what?)
Cles of Narnia
Yes, the Chronic (what?)
Cles of Narnia
We love that Chronic (what?)
Cles of Narnia
Pass that Chronic (what?)
Cles of Narnia
Yo, stop at the deli.
The theater’s over-priced.
You’ve got the backpack?
Gonna pack it up nice.
Don’t want security to get suspicious.
Mr. Pibb and Red Vines equals CRAZY DELICIOUS!
I’ll reach in my pocket, pull out some dough.
Girl actin’ like she never seen a $10 before.
It’s all about the Hamiltons, baby.
Throw the snacks in a bag and I’m ghost like Swayze.
Roll up to the theater.
Ticket buying, what we’re handlin’.
You can call us Aaron Burr.
From the way we’re droppin’ Hamiltons.
Now parked in our seats.
Movie trivias the illest.
Which Friends alum starred in films with Bruce Willis?
We answered so fast it was scary.
Everyone stared in awe when we screamed Matthew Perry.
Now quiet in the theater or it’s gonna get tragic.
We’re bout to get taken to a dream world of magic with…
the Chronic (what?)
Cles of Narnia
Yes, the Chronic (what?)
Cles of Narnia
We love that Chronic (what?)
Cles of Narnia
Pass that Chronic (what?)
Cles of Narnia
~mitzi
Thursday, April 27, 2006
entering the final stretch...
Basically, I have one 6 pager, 1 quiz, and 3 finals...and I'm done. That's it...college career is finished!! And I still have no job. But I'm trying to stay positive.
The deal w/ the Teach for America position is that they want me to revised the Project Plan that I turned into them before my second interview. Apparently, they didn't think it was my "best" effort...which is probably true. The "pretend" Project Plan was a itinerary for a two-day recruitment event for an alumna of UT who is now a corps member. Fine, I can do this...I've done itineraries before. The thing is that they wanted specific students and professors that this person should meet with during the visit. And when I say "specific", I mean actually people...w/ actual names. Sounds easy? Well, not exactly. I basically used the UT website to find people, so maybe this wasn't the "best" effort that I could have put forward, but it was all I had at the time...while going to class, work, writing papers, and giving 2 presentations. So they want me to revise it and make it more specific than it already is...their advise to me: use the UT website. Oh, thanks...it's not like we didn't talk about the website for the good amount of the 2nd interview. Oh well.
In other news, I'm pretty excited about this weekend...tomorrow is the Maifest at my parents house and then Saturday is my roommate's family's annual bonfire...good times.
So while I try and discern exactly what to do w/ my career...I'll enjoy some good beer, delicious desserts, and s'mores!!
~mitzi
The deal w/ the Teach for America position is that they want me to revised the Project Plan that I turned into them before my second interview. Apparently, they didn't think it was my "best" effort...which is probably true. The "pretend" Project Plan was a itinerary for a two-day recruitment event for an alumna of UT who is now a corps member. Fine, I can do this...I've done itineraries before. The thing is that they wanted specific students and professors that this person should meet with during the visit. And when I say "specific", I mean actually people...w/ actual names. Sounds easy? Well, not exactly. I basically used the UT website to find people, so maybe this wasn't the "best" effort that I could have put forward, but it was all I had at the time...while going to class, work, writing papers, and giving 2 presentations. So they want me to revise it and make it more specific than it already is...their advise to me: use the UT website. Oh, thanks...it's not like we didn't talk about the website for the good amount of the 2nd interview. Oh well.
In other news, I'm pretty excited about this weekend...tomorrow is the Maifest at my parents house and then Saturday is my roommate's family's annual bonfire...good times.
So while I try and discern exactly what to do w/ my career...I'll enjoy some good beer, delicious desserts, and s'mores!!
~mitzi
Saturday, April 15, 2006
blisters...
How is it that after mowing my yard for who knows how many summers without ever getting blisters on my hands...today I get them while helping do some of the spring cleaning chores around my parents' house, including mowing the yard? Weird. I guess my hands have gotten a bit weak since last summer. Go figure.
Anyhow, I'm getting ready to go to the Easter Vigil at St. L's and I have to say I'm pretty pumped about the renewal of my faith tonight. Once again, I get to hear the story of Salvation History as we wait in the darkness for Christ's Resurrection! How Glorious It Will Be!!
Christus Vincit! Christus Regnat! Christus Imperat!
The Triduum ends tonight and how beautiful it is.
A blessed Easter to you.
~mitzi
Anyhow, I'm getting ready to go to the Easter Vigil at St. L's and I have to say I'm pretty pumped about the renewal of my faith tonight. Once again, I get to hear the story of Salvation History as we wait in the darkness for Christ's Resurrection! How Glorious It Will Be!!
Christus Vincit! Christus Regnat! Christus Imperat!
A blessed Easter to you.
~mitzi
Sunday, April 09, 2006
positive attitude...
I realize that I have been kind of down lately in my posts and perhaps it is because I'm just really nervous about the next two months of my life with graduation, finding a job, and possibly moving away (pending whatever job I get). However, with the spring season coming early bringing sunshine and 80 degree weather...it is not hard to find the positive in life.
Nature is so beautiful this time of year. Spring and Fall are definitely my favorite seasons just because of the changes in colors! All the flower blossoms are so pretty!! Plus, I love driving down the streets here in Lawrence when the trees are just starting to get the beginnings of leaves. Tennessee Street is especially beautiful. So driving with the window down and the radio playing a good song...nothing can touch me.
And it's Holy Week! My favorite time of year...spiritual gifts that come from this week are truly special and I just hope that I can put everything that is bothering me behind me for the time being and be able to really live these next seven days.
Have a blessed Holy Week!
~mitzi
Nature is so beautiful this time of year. Spring and Fall are definitely my favorite seasons just because of the changes in colors! All the flower blossoms are so pretty!! Plus, I love driving down the streets here in Lawrence when the trees are just starting to get the beginnings of leaves. Tennessee Street is especially beautiful. So driving with the window down and the radio playing a good song...nothing can touch me.
And it's Holy Week! My favorite time of year...spiritual gifts that come from this week are truly special and I just hope that I can put everything that is bothering me behind me for the time being and be able to really live these next seven days.
Behold the Bridegroom comes at midnight, and blessed is the servant whom He shall find watching, and again, unworthy is the servant whom He shall find heedless. Beware, therefore, O my soul, do not be weighed down with sleep, lest you be given up to death and lest you be shut out of the kingdom. But rouse yourself, crying: HOLY, HOLY, HOLY art Thou, O our God!
Through the Theotokos, have mercy on us!
Glory to the Father, and to the Son and to the Holy Spirit.
Now and ever, and unto ages of ages.
Amen.
Have a blessed Holy Week!
~mitzi
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
you're wrong and you know it...
In my Constitutional History class we are currently discussing the Warren Court that decided such cases as Griswold v. Connecticut and Roe v. Wade. Now I'm going to say that I have quite a bit of bias to these two cases due to my activities involving the LIFE movement...because I believe that from the moment of conception...a human is there...not just an embryo...not just dividing cells...he/she IS a human...there is no doubt. Check you biology book.
Anyhow, the point of the matter is that while we are "discussing" these two particular cases...we never get to the truth of the matter. We discuss "privacy rights" and the 14th Amendment, but never mention why contraception or abortion was illegal in the first place. Hmmm...let's think about that one, shall we? I guess I am just sick and tired of professors and students claiming that they are open-minded because they are "discussing" these controversial cases. They think that will please us close-minded folks. Ha! I'll tell you what would please me...Let's have a debate, let's get all the facts out there, and hey...how about you all listen for once.
I once asked a pro-abortion advocate when she thought that life began:
Me: When do you think life begins?
Her: I don't have to answer that.
Me: Yes, you do.
Her: Well, it means nothing to me.
Me: Well, it does to me.
At this point our "discussion" was cut off by our teacher. But this absurd remark made me wonder...if when life begins means nothing to her...then surely when life ends also is meaningless. No wonder we have so many cases of child and spousal abuse, rape, murder, suicide, etc.
If we cannot show respect for life at the most innocent of stages (in the womb) then when can we show respect for life?
Seriously.
~mitzi
Anyhow, the point of the matter is that while we are "discussing" these two particular cases...we never get to the truth of the matter. We discuss "privacy rights" and the 14th Amendment, but never mention why contraception or abortion was illegal in the first place. Hmmm...let's think about that one, shall we? I guess I am just sick and tired of professors and students claiming that they are open-minded because they are "discussing" these controversial cases. They think that will please us close-minded folks. Ha! I'll tell you what would please me...Let's have a debate, let's get all the facts out there, and hey...how about you all listen for once.
I once asked a pro-abortion advocate when she thought that life began:
Me: When do you think life begins?
Her: I don't have to answer that.
Me: Yes, you do.
Her: Well, it means nothing to me.
Me: Well, it does to me.
At this point our "discussion" was cut off by our teacher. But this absurd remark made me wonder...if when life begins means nothing to her...then surely when life ends also is meaningless. No wonder we have so many cases of child and spousal abuse, rape, murder, suicide, etc.
If we cannot show respect for life at the most innocent of stages (in the womb) then when can we show respect for life?
Seriously.
~mitzi
Monday, April 03, 2006
my life is a sitcom...
I'm sure many people think this as well...but sometimes I think my life is a sitcom. And now it is...
Last night as I was watching "Grey's Anatomy", I saw a preview for the pilot episode for "What About Brian"...here's the tagline:
What about Brian? Of his close-knit group of friends, everyone else has paired off, while Brian has emerged as the last bachelor standing. At 34, regardless of his run of bad luck in matters of the heart, Brian still holds out hope that one day he'll open the door and be blinded by love. However questions about his fate have been popping up more frequently in his head. The most pressing question is – and it's one that only he can answer -- could all of his problems stem from the fact that he is harboring a crush on the picture-perfect Marjorie, his best friend's girl?
Granted it is a male and his name is Brian...but come on!! Okay...so maybe not my life entirely, because of my "paired-off" friends...I'm not harboring any crushes on my best friends' guys (because they are my brothers-in-law...and while I love them...I don't love them like that). Okay...so maybe it is not exactly my life...but close? right? hmmm...just a thought.
I'm still waiting on interviews...applications are out and I've made the calls that I can...I'm really in limbo and I almost want to start a group for us limbo folks to come together and discuss our limboness...although when one of us finally is out of limbo then the rest of us will just be bitter and reject the non-limbo person. I don't think my purpose in life is to breed bitterness, so I'll just keep it to myself.
The only thing that is helping me through all of this is a litany that a friend of mine was talking about a few weeks ago. I'll post it here in case any of you need a little prayer to kick you in the butt. It was written by Rafael Cardinal Merry del Val (1865-1930) who was the Secretary of State for Pope Saint Pius X.
Last night as I was watching "Grey's Anatomy", I saw a preview for the pilot episode for "What About Brian"...here's the tagline:
What about Brian? Of his close-knit group of friends, everyone else has paired off, while Brian has emerged as the last bachelor standing. At 34, regardless of his run of bad luck in matters of the heart, Brian still holds out hope that one day he'll open the door and be blinded by love. However questions about his fate have been popping up more frequently in his head. The most pressing question is – and it's one that only he can answer -- could all of his problems stem from the fact that he is harboring a crush on the picture-perfect Marjorie, his best friend's girl?
Granted it is a male and his name is Brian...but come on!! Okay...so maybe not my life entirely, because of my "paired-off" friends...I'm not harboring any crushes on my best friends' guys (because they are my brothers-in-law...and while I love them...I don't love them like that). Okay...so maybe it is not exactly my life...but close? right? hmmm...just a thought.
I'm still waiting on interviews...applications are out and I've made the calls that I can...I'm really in limbo and I almost want to start a group for us limbo folks to come together and discuss our limboness...although when one of us finally is out of limbo then the rest of us will just be bitter and reject the non-limbo person. I don't think my purpose in life is to breed bitterness, so I'll just keep it to myself.
The only thing that is helping me through all of this is a litany that a friend of mine was talking about a few weeks ago. I'll post it here in case any of you need a little prayer to kick you in the butt. It was written by Rafael Cardinal Merry del Val (1865-1930) who was the Secretary of State for Pope Saint Pius X.
Litany of Humilty
O Jesus! meek and humble of heart, Hear me.
From the desire of being esteemed,
Deliver me, Jesus.
O Jesus! meek and humble of heart, Hear me.
From the desire of being esteemed,
Deliver me, Jesus.
From the desire of being loved...
From the desire of being extolled ...
From the desire of being honored ...
From the desire of being praised ...
From the desire of being preferred to others...
From the desire of being consulted ...
From the desire of being approved ...
From the fear of being humiliated ...
From the fear of being despised...
From the fear of suffering rebukes ...
From the fear of being calumniated ...
From the fear of being forgotten ...
From the fear of being ridiculed ...
From the fear of being wronged ...
From the fear of being suspected ...
That others may be loved more than I,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
That others may be esteemed more than I ...
That, in the opinion of the world, others may increase and I may decrease ...
That others may be chosen and I set aside ...
That others may be praised and I unnoticed ...
That others may be preferred to me in everything...
That others may become holier than I, provided that I may become as holy as I should…
Amen.
~mitzi
That, in the opinion of the world, others may increase and I may decrease ...
That others may be chosen and I set aside ...
That others may be praised and I unnoticed ...
That others may be preferred to me in everything...
That others may become holier than I, provided that I may become as holy as I should…
Amen.
~mitzi
Thursday, March 30, 2006
one a penny, two a penny, oh wait...
So now even food can be offensive:
http://www.wnd.com/news/article.asp?ARTICLE_ID=48700
Better get rid of pretzels, beer, wine, fish...because they all have religious connotations...
Funny thing...I used to make hot cross buns for my scholarship hall...opps!
~mitzi
http://www.wnd.com/news/article.asp?ARTICLE_ID=48700
Better get rid of pretzels, beer, wine, fish...because they all have religious connotations...
Funny thing...I used to make hot cross buns for my scholarship hall...opps!
~mitzi
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
no maryland for me...
Well, maybe it was the name or maybe it was the fact that I couldn't start until June...but I wasn't hired by the Maryland folks. I had to chuckle because they told me that I had some really great "skills" and I flashed to Napolean Dynamite.
"You know, like nunchuck skills, bowhunting skills, computer hacking skills...girls only want boyfriends who have great skills."And I have to share this picture.
Anyhow, I guess there is something better out there for me as far as a job is concerned...I just wish I could find it!
~mitzi
name game...
So my first name is "Mitzi". Well, no it isn't. "Mitzi" is a nickname for my legal middle name. Everyone calls me "Mitzi". However, for legal purposes and also for applying for jobs I use my legal name which causes some confusion.
For example, today I called the folks in Maryland that I interviewed with a week ago to see if I was a candidate for a second interview. As the phone is ringing and the voicemail picks up...I keep tell myself..."legal name, legal name...not Mitzi"...but as soon as the beep sounds I say "Hello, this is Mitzi..." Shoot! They only know me by my legal name!! So I quickly recovered w/my legal name and apologized for using my nickname.
Well, I guess if I don't get this job over the whole name game then I didn't want it in the first place.
A word of caution to my siblings who are expecting : don't name your children two different names...please...for my future nieces and nephews sakes
~mitzi
For example, today I called the folks in Maryland that I interviewed with a week ago to see if I was a candidate for a second interview. As the phone is ringing and the voicemail picks up...I keep tell myself..."legal name, legal name...not Mitzi"...but as soon as the beep sounds I say "Hello, this is Mitzi..." Shoot! They only know me by my legal name!! So I quickly recovered w/my legal name and apologized for using my nickname.
Well, I guess if I don't get this job over the whole name game then I didn't want it in the first place.
A word of caution to my siblings who are expecting : don't name your children two different names...please...for my future nieces and nephews sakes
~mitzi
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
1000 lire...
I'm not the biggest fan of my professor for my interest group politics class. He and his family use to go to St. Lawrence...and so he knows my stance on several issues and my faith. However, his family left St. Lawrence a few years back. I don't where they went, but obviously my professor has some issues with the Catholic Church. Oh well, this is his problem...not mine. But the thing that gets me is that he will always make some comment that is not that offensive about St. Lawrence and how things are run financially there and then looks straight at me as if this is how he going to get me to come over to "his" side. Nice try, buck-o!
Anyhow, this class involves several hours of reading...which I usually don't do. 50% because I don't want to and 50% because I have little respect for this professor. However, we have 10 point quizzes every other week or so. I haven't been doing spectacular on them usually an 7, 8, or 9...but I always just say...screw you, teacher. Believe me, I know it is my fault...but frankly I just don't care anymore. What's even better is when my professor is handing back the quizzes, he'll give a special reward to the top quizzes that were more than just the 10 points. One would think it would be extra credit...but for the past three quizzes it has been $1 gallon jugs of windsheild washer fluid.
Now to a regular person this might not sound like much...but to someone who uses her quarters for laundry and not to clean her car (aka me)...this is pretty nice. But still not caring for this teacher, I don't care whether I get the washer fluid or not. Or but do I now.
For some reason, I managed to fall into the category of "better than 10 points" on my last quiz. So I'm pretty excited because I'm going to get the washer fluid...but no. My arrogant professor brings out a 1000 lire note to give me. No washer fluid...just foriegn money that I'll never be able to use. Sweet. At least, I got 10 points on my quiz.
33 days until Stop Day!!
~mitzi
Anyhow, this class involves several hours of reading...which I usually don't do. 50% because I don't want to and 50% because I have little respect for this professor. However, we have 10 point quizzes every other week or so. I haven't been doing spectacular on them usually an 7, 8, or 9...but I always just say...screw you, teacher. Believe me, I know it is my fault...but frankly I just don't care anymore. What's even better is when my professor is handing back the quizzes, he'll give a special reward to the top quizzes that were more than just the 10 points. One would think it would be extra credit...but for the past three quizzes it has been $1 gallon jugs of windsheild washer fluid.
Now to a regular person this might not sound like much...but to someone who uses her quarters for laundry and not to clean her car (aka me)...this is pretty nice. But still not caring for this teacher, I don't care whether I get the washer fluid or not. Or but do I now.
For some reason, I managed to fall into the category of "better than 10 points" on my last quiz. So I'm pretty excited because I'm going to get the washer fluid...but no. My arrogant professor brings out a 1000 lire note to give me. No washer fluid...just foriegn money that I'll never be able to use. Sweet. At least, I got 10 points on my quiz.
33 days until Stop Day!!
~mitzi
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
snow break...
And if Kansas weather couldn't do anything more this spring besides the "micro-burst" last week...today we have snow. Sweet. My spring break is awesome. Please note the large amount of sarcasm.
Yesterday, I was interviewed over the phone for a position in Maryland. It actually sound pretty cool and something that I could definitely do. Except they tell me at the end of the interview that really want the position filled right away...so that kind of puts me at the bottom of the pile since I'm not free until June 1st or so because of graduation and helping my brother fix-up his new house. Anyhow, we'll see and I'll keep everyone updated.
They did ask me this question which got me to thinking: "What motivates you?"
~mitzi
Yesterday, I was interviewed over the phone for a position in Maryland. It actually sound pretty cool and something that I could definitely do. Except they tell me at the end of the interview that really want the position filled right away...so that kind of puts me at the bottom of the pile since I'm not free until June 1st or so because of graduation and helping my brother fix-up his new house. Anyhow, we'll see and I'll keep everyone updated.
They did ask me this question which got me to thinking: "What motivates you?"
~mitzi
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
rhetoric of sports
Now granted, I knew that what I was getting into when I enrolled in COMS 560 "Rhetoric of Sports"...but then again...maybe I didn't. This class is basically 3 hours that I needed to have in order to keep my scholarships for my last semester here at KU that require me to be a "full-time student" at 12 hours.
Anyhow, the class is fairly easy. One paper so far and no mid-term or final scheduled...yet. Basically the class if for my instructor to be able to spout off anything he thinks about sports in general. Sometimes our classes are intellectual in discussion and sometimes it is a "what team is better", "what coach is better", "what player is better", "whoa did you see that play last night",. "Texas sucks", "Missouri sucks"...etc.
So with the NCAA Tournament coming up on Thursday...plus Spring Break...my teacher announces that he will be embarking on an (and I quote) "ethnographic field study on the rhetoric of sports bars...so I was thinking Henry T's. What do you all think?"
Yep, then we had a vote as to which bar we would go to for class...
Sometimes college just makes me smile...
~mitzi
Anyhow, the class is fairly easy. One paper so far and no mid-term or final scheduled...yet. Basically the class if for my instructor to be able to spout off anything he thinks about sports in general. Sometimes our classes are intellectual in discussion and sometimes it is a "what team is better", "what coach is better", "what player is better", "whoa did you see that play last night",. "Texas sucks", "Missouri sucks"...etc.
So with the NCAA Tournament coming up on Thursday...plus Spring Break...my teacher announces that he will be embarking on an (and I quote) "ethnographic field study on the rhetoric of sports bars...so I was thinking Henry T's. What do you all think?"
Yep, then we had a vote as to which bar we would go to for class...
Sometimes college just makes me smile...
~mitzi
Monday, March 13, 2006
jefferson's...
The local restaurant, Jefferson's, advertises "peace, love, and hot wings" and while I didn't order hot wings yesterday evening for dinner...I also did not get the peace and love that one should expect in this particular establishment.
The situation:
Myself and two of my friends were wanting a good cheeseburger and decided to head to Jefferson's for their $4.50 burger basket specials on KU game days...first mistake. Apparantely "game day" means only "game time"...fine. Mistake dos: Apparantely Jefferson's gets its food shipment on Mondays...so by Sunday evening they are out of burgers leading our server to say: "Yeah, we're out of burgers". Mistake 3: staying at Jefferson's even though they were out of burgers.
The problem:
So after my friends and I had reorder other meals to supposedly take the place of our non-existent burgers we begin to see tables around out ordering and actually recieving burgers. The couple right by us had come in after us and had recieved their burgers before we recieved our "no-burger" meals...so being nice folk, we thought, 'hey, maybe they're garden burgers?'...so we asked...nope, not a garden burger...just a regular, good old Jefferson's burger in a basket o' fries. Funny.
The resolution:
Apparantely Jefferson's doesn't like the burger-loving table of me and my friends...and therefore we do not like Jefferson's either.
Go 'hawks!!
~mitzi
The situation:
Myself and two of my friends were wanting a good cheeseburger and decided to head to Jefferson's for their $4.50 burger basket specials on KU game days...first mistake. Apparantely "game day" means only "game time"...fine. Mistake dos: Apparantely Jefferson's gets its food shipment on Mondays...so by Sunday evening they are out of burgers leading our server to say: "Yeah, we're out of burgers". Mistake 3: staying at Jefferson's even though they were out of burgers.
The problem:
So after my friends and I had reorder other meals to supposedly take the place of our non-existent burgers we begin to see tables around out ordering and actually recieving burgers. The couple right by us had come in after us and had recieved their burgers before we recieved our "no-burger" meals...so being nice folk, we thought, 'hey, maybe they're garden burgers?'...so we asked...nope, not a garden burger...just a regular, good old Jefferson's burger in a basket o' fries. Funny.
The resolution:
Apparantely Jefferson's doesn't like the burger-loving table of me and my friends...and therefore we do not like Jefferson's either.
Go 'hawks!!
~mitzi
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
sitting, waiting, wishing...
Yes, it is the title of a Jack Johnson song...but I'm using it anyway. I don't know, I guess it is just my mood right now...sitting, waiting, and wishing I knew what the heck my next "step" is suppose to be. I feel pretty jaded about life right now and that I'm just chillin' since I have no clue where I'm going. I sent out numerous applications/résumés/ cover letters and I still hear nothing back...except to just wait---"we'll contact you". Riiight. My roommate just found out that she's head to ISU for graduate school. I'm so excited for her. Another friend is headed to Houston w/ Teach for America...also very cool. And right now, I'm looking at getting a paper route again.
Okay maybe not a paper route...but looking at it? It doesn't seem that bad really.
"Why must I always be waiting on YOU!"...yeah, that's a religious YOU (aka big guy).
Don't worry, I stay right where I'm at until YOU push me where I'm suppose to go...or at least open the door.
~mitzi
Okay maybe not a paper route...but looking at it? It doesn't seem that bad really.
"Why must I always be waiting on YOU!"...yeah, that's a religious YOU (aka big guy).
Don't worry, I stay right where I'm at until YOU push me where I'm suppose to go...or at least open the door.
~mitzi
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
whoa there...
So yesterday I was looking at my planner and realized that Spring Break is merely 10 class days away...and translating that to me: 6 class days! Whoa there...where did the semester go...and on that note where did February go? Hmmm...I guess I had better get on this job search or else.
As I'm struggling w/ life in general, there are always those things that make you smile throughout the day...Yesterday, the new director and chaplain at St. Lawrence, Fr. Steve, said Mass and 1) I'm so glad we have "director" again...it just makes things seems a little settled...2) Fr. Steve's homilies are very real in that they concise so that us laymen can figure out God's great plan for us. For example, yesterday's homily was a story about one of Fr. Steve's fellow priest friends who gave a presentation to Mother Teresa and her Missionaries of Charity. The priest had told the sisters that they "were like Jesus" in their service to the poor. Apparently, Mother Teresa took the priest aside after the presentation and told him that he was completely wrong---the sisters were not acting like Jesus, but were serving Jesus...the "poor" were "Jesus".
For some reason it just struck me. I've always known to see Jesus in others, but yesterday's homily just help me think about it more. I think so often we get completely focused on acting like Jesus ourselves, that we forget to treat others as if they were Jesus. Hmmm...does this make sense...probably not. Christian living is so complicated...especially at college when we are surrounded by distractions of every kind...including job searching. We must continue to trust in HIM to help us through. In serving others, we serve HIM. But believe me, I struggle w/ this just as much as the next guy. Just food for thought.
Another thing...Fr. Steve is pretty sarcastic. It is so great to be able to joke w/ him. 'Course, he'll probably end up being my Confessor...so I had better watch my tongue!
~mitzi
As I'm struggling w/ life in general, there are always those things that make you smile throughout the day...Yesterday, the new director and chaplain at St. Lawrence, Fr. Steve, said Mass and 1) I'm so glad we have "director" again...it just makes things seems a little settled...2) Fr. Steve's homilies are very real in that they concise so that us laymen can figure out God's great plan for us. For example, yesterday's homily was a story about one of Fr. Steve's fellow priest friends who gave a presentation to Mother Teresa and her Missionaries of Charity. The priest had told the sisters that they "were like Jesus" in their service to the poor. Apparently, Mother Teresa took the priest aside after the presentation and told him that he was completely wrong---the sisters were not acting like Jesus, but were serving Jesus...the "poor" were "Jesus".
For some reason it just struck me. I've always known to see Jesus in others, but yesterday's homily just help me think about it more. I think so often we get completely focused on acting like Jesus ourselves, that we forget to treat others as if they were Jesus. Hmmm...does this make sense...probably not. Christian living is so complicated...especially at college when we are surrounded by distractions of every kind...including job searching. We must continue to trust in HIM to help us through. In serving others, we serve HIM. But believe me, I struggle w/ this just as much as the next guy. Just food for thought.
Another thing...Fr. Steve is pretty sarcastic. It is so great to be able to joke w/ him. 'Course, he'll probably end up being my Confessor...so I had better watch my tongue!
~mitzi
Monday, March 06, 2006
fourth day...
Well, I'm back from the retreat...and I still haven't quite figured out why God decided to have me go on SLK3...There were so many wonderful moments and so many beautiful people sharing their lives and their faith with me and the rest of the participants. So many people were praying for me during this retreat, but I still could not find the peace that I was looking for...yep, still searching.
The more I look at this past weekend. It was truly a mortification for me. To be completely reliant on others...and to trust whatever God had in store for the weekend. I have a lot of confusion in my heart...that was hit with a bit of pain this weekend. And for some reason HE had me go through it...and will prepare me for that "something better" in answering my prayers.
One thing for sure is: Somebody up there loves me...and loves you too. And basically that's all we need to know.
~mitzi
The more I look at this past weekend. It was truly a mortification for me. To be completely reliant on others...and to trust whatever God had in store for the weekend. I have a lot of confusion in my heart...that was hit with a bit of pain this weekend. And for some reason HE had me go through it...and will prepare me for that "something better" in answering my prayers.
One thing for sure is: Somebody up there loves me...and loves you too. And basically that's all we need to know.
~mitzi
Thursday, March 02, 2006
lent: day 2...
It is so weird how excited I get about Lent. It is basically like the Catholic New Year...we make resolutions to make ourselves better people of God and ultimately...we are to carry out our resolutions through the rest of our lives and not just the six weeks of Lent. Sometimes it happens and sometime we fail and have to start over again. Either way, we are continuing to grow...I'm continuing to grow.
Although, I'm a little nervous about this coming weekend. It's Koinonia and I'm trying not to go into the retreat w/ too many expectations. I am really trying to seek clarity in my life and to discern where exactly I'm suppose to be going in these next few months. I guess I'm hoping that this retreat will help me refocused and ultimately find an answer...However, the closer the retreat comes the more I realize that it will most likely be something completely different than what I expect. So I'm trying to stay open about the whole experience and trust that HE will bring me peace..."My peace I give to you"...
So while I'm still confused...life does has those little joys...beautiful weather. Who could have asked for a more glorious day yesterday for Ash Wednesday? 77 degrees...wow.
~mitzi
Although, I'm a little nervous about this coming weekend. It's Koinonia and I'm trying not to go into the retreat w/ too many expectations. I am really trying to seek clarity in my life and to discern where exactly I'm suppose to be going in these next few months. I guess I'm hoping that this retreat will help me refocused and ultimately find an answer...However, the closer the retreat comes the more I realize that it will most likely be something completely different than what I expect. So I'm trying to stay open about the whole experience and trust that HE will bring me peace..."My peace I give to you"...
So while I'm still confused...life does has those little joys...beautiful weather. Who could have asked for a more glorious day yesterday for Ash Wednesday? 77 degrees...wow.
~mitzi
Sunday, February 26, 2006
film quote time...
After spending yesterday and evening w/ the family...I started thinking about the film "The Family Stone". For those of you have not seen it...it definitely has many more storylines than just the "new person" entering into the family. However the main idea surrounds the whole idea of family...the "new person" (Sarah Jessica Parker's character) asks the matriarch (played by Diane Keaton),
"Uh nothing...it's just that we're all that we've got."
I guess I just realized indeed, family is what keeps you sane. They are the ones who have known you the longest, have been there for everything whether it was the most embarassing moment or your happiest. They are always there to share good news with and cry through bad news.
I know that not everyone is blessed with wonderful biological/married into families...but sometimes a family is those few people who really make a difference in your life. For me, I'm lucky that I have truly wonderful family, that supports me even when I have no idea where I'm headed and buys me awesome karaoke CDs when my life is completely sucking.
~mitzi
"What's so great about you guys?"And the response,
"Uh nothing...it's just that we're all that we've got."
I guess I just realized indeed, family is what keeps you sane. They are the ones who have known you the longest, have been there for everything whether it was the most embarassing moment or your happiest. They are always there to share good news with and cry through bad news.
I know that not everyone is blessed with wonderful biological/married into families...but sometimes a family is those few people who really make a difference in your life. For me, I'm lucky that I have truly wonderful family, that supports me even when I have no idea where I'm headed and buys me awesome karaoke CDs when my life is completely sucking.
~mitzi
Friday, February 24, 2006
out of gas...
It's funny how things in life will mimic your feelings inside. Actually, it is probably not that funny and more or less "duh! Mitzi, of course they mimic your feelings inside". Anyhow, yesterday I after taking my chances with the low-gas-light in my car...I ran out of gas. Thankfully, my gracious parents have me on their motor club card and therefore, I was able to get assistance within 40 minutes. The funny thing is that I was headed to the gas station and then to Adoration for a little Jesus time before settling in to watch the women's figure skating finals. But, I ran out of gas and so did my Jesus time while waiting for Hillcrest Wrecker to come to my rescue with a gallon of gasoline. I don't know if any of you checked out yesterday's meditation from In Conversation w/ God...but let me tell you...it certainly kicked my butt. The entire thing was how no matter what: Heaven is our goal. Therefore, whatever obstacles that are in our way of that goal...need to be pushed aside. And whatever paths lead us closer to that goal...need to be taken. Of course this means sacrifice...so I guess this is my new discernment. What do I sacrifice to bring me closer to Heaven?
Right now, I feel like I'm out of gas...and I definitely need to filled-up. I feel like I'm just watching things go by as if I'm out on some road just waiting for someone to stop and help me out...but maybe I just need to start walking.
I'm going on a retreat next weekend, but I'm a little nervous about it. It is with St. Lawrence and I've been a part of it the past two times that it has happened because it is geared towards the younger folks who are not as involved in order to welcome them into the community or Koinonia. But the team wants me to go as a participant. I know there's a reason why I'm going and retreats are always good for the soul. I guess I'm just afraid about what might happen...what will God speak to me?...and will I understand?...will I be able to follow through and do what HE asks of me?...because frankly, I'm not understanding right now...I'm out of gas. I know I shouldn't worry because ultimately...HE wants us all to happy...and all we have to do for that is to trust HIM. A friend of mine told me something along these lines...to worry not and to fear not because tomorrow brings enough worries and fears...I apologize for misquoting...but it certainly struck me.
On a positive note...the weather outside is simply beautiful. that's right...the flip-flops are coming out!!
~mitzi
Right now, I feel like I'm out of gas...and I definitely need to filled-up. I feel like I'm just watching things go by as if I'm out on some road just waiting for someone to stop and help me out...but maybe I just need to start walking.
I'm going on a retreat next weekend, but I'm a little nervous about it. It is with St. Lawrence and I've been a part of it the past two times that it has happened because it is geared towards the younger folks who are not as involved in order to welcome them into the community or Koinonia. But the team wants me to go as a participant. I know there's a reason why I'm going and retreats are always good for the soul. I guess I'm just afraid about what might happen...what will God speak to me?...and will I understand?...will I be able to follow through and do what HE asks of me?...because frankly, I'm not understanding right now...I'm out of gas. I know I shouldn't worry because ultimately...HE wants us all to happy...and all we have to do for that is to trust HIM. A friend of mine told me something along these lines...to worry not and to fear not because tomorrow brings enough worries and fears...I apologize for misquoting...but it certainly struck me.
On a positive note...the weather outside is simply beautiful. that's right...the flip-flops are coming out!!
~mitzi
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
confusion...
So in my last "blog" I alluded to the jumbled mess that is my life as of right now. And I'm thinking that if I have to write it down and chance that others might see it...perhaps, it will help. Maybe it'll hurt...but right now, I'll just go with it and we'll see what comes from it.
I guess the best way to describe my life right now is a standing-retreat. Let me break this down. For the past year, I have had focus. Not so much in the school/life sense, but in planning the March for Life and the Veritas Convention. And now, I realize how much those two things were attachments for me. I centered my life around those things because they brought me the sense of being needed. I used them as excuses for not doing other things---because frankly, I didn' t have time, but maybe I did. Granted, good things came out of both of these events...especially during the March. I was probably under the most stress that I had ever been...yet, I was genuinely at peace because of the people that were right beside me. I know that it was HIM that guided me through it all...for if HE brings you to it, HE will bring you through it. But it has now been a month and I'm so far away from peace---hence the standing-retreat.
Here's my attempt to explain this position: Right now I feel like I'm standing in front of a door. The door is open, but not quite enough to let me in...so I keep turning around. But then the door will begin to open more...only to swing back just as I'm putting my foot in it as if to say....(imagine Hugh Grant's character in Love Actually) "ooo, do we really want to do that?". Does this make sense? Probably not.
Anyhow, I guess I just would like to know (and yes, this is directed to the Big Guy upstairs) is when I'm suppose to start pushing on the door. What's the line? Pray as if it all depended on God, Act as if it all depended on you. I know God didn't make me someone who just sits back and lets everyone else do the work...but HE has also always given the opportunities (or an open doors) to act upon.
Basically, I'm just confused and would like an answer. Either slam the door in my face and I'll deal with it or give me the opportunity to walk through the door and I'll deal with whateve comes with that. I feel like I'm ready...but that is probably just my pride speaking.
On the other side of things, I have officially started my job search! It is actually quite interesting seeing the "real world". I went to this 'career workshop' last weekend to find out about the career of a financial advisor. Going in, I thought, "hey, this could be good"...but after leaving...I just felt sleazy. Do I really want to pursue a career that helps people who already have lots of money, get more money? ummm. Nope, I don't. So that's a no-go as far as the job search is concerned. However, I need to find a job that at least pays the bills. I can see myself working for a non-profit organization...but let's face it, that won't pay the rent.
I guess this is yet another doorway that I'm in front of. I went to a talk about balancing your apostolate with your vocation...but obviously, it isn't working for me. I feel like I need to get one taken care of before making decisions on the other one. In other words, I know that I'm suppose to be a wife and mother...and I feel that I'm ready to at least start making strides in this direction---yet, the door is swinging. And then there's my apostolate...is it in the LIFE movement because I feel like I've done a bunch w/ it in the past year...or is it something else, some other passion that I have yet to find...and when the heck is that suppose to come?---yet, another swinging door.
Oh, here's a profound thought: maybe they are both the same door! Oh, wouldn't that make life interesting...or confusing.
All right, I'm sorry for the long post...but that's all I've got for today.
~mitzi
I guess the best way to describe my life right now is a standing-retreat. Let me break this down. For the past year, I have had focus. Not so much in the school/life sense, but in planning the March for Life and the Veritas Convention. And now, I realize how much those two things were attachments for me. I centered my life around those things because they brought me the sense of being needed. I used them as excuses for not doing other things---because frankly, I didn' t have time, but maybe I did. Granted, good things came out of both of these events...especially during the March. I was probably under the most stress that I had ever been...yet, I was genuinely at peace because of the people that were right beside me. I know that it was HIM that guided me through it all...for if HE brings you to it, HE will bring you through it. But it has now been a month and I'm so far away from peace---hence the standing-retreat.
Here's my attempt to explain this position: Right now I feel like I'm standing in front of a door. The door is open, but not quite enough to let me in...so I keep turning around. But then the door will begin to open more...only to swing back just as I'm putting my foot in it as if to say....(imagine Hugh Grant's character in Love Actually) "ooo, do we really want to do that?". Does this make sense? Probably not.
Anyhow, I guess I just would like to know (and yes, this is directed to the Big Guy upstairs) is when I'm suppose to start pushing on the door. What's the line? Pray as if it all depended on God, Act as if it all depended on you. I know God didn't make me someone who just sits back and lets everyone else do the work...but HE has also always given the opportunities (or an open doors) to act upon.
Basically, I'm just confused and would like an answer. Either slam the door in my face and I'll deal with it or give me the opportunity to walk through the door and I'll deal with whateve comes with that. I feel like I'm ready...but that is probably just my pride speaking.
On the other side of things, I have officially started my job search! It is actually quite interesting seeing the "real world". I went to this 'career workshop' last weekend to find out about the career of a financial advisor. Going in, I thought, "hey, this could be good"...but after leaving...I just felt sleazy. Do I really want to pursue a career that helps people who already have lots of money, get more money? ummm. Nope, I don't. So that's a no-go as far as the job search is concerned. However, I need to find a job that at least pays the bills. I can see myself working for a non-profit organization...but let's face it, that won't pay the rent.
I guess this is yet another doorway that I'm in front of. I went to a talk about balancing your apostolate with your vocation...but obviously, it isn't working for me. I feel like I need to get one taken care of before making decisions on the other one. In other words, I know that I'm suppose to be a wife and mother...and I feel that I'm ready to at least start making strides in this direction---yet, the door is swinging. And then there's my apostolate...is it in the LIFE movement because I feel like I've done a bunch w/ it in the past year...or is it something else, some other passion that I have yet to find...and when the heck is that suppose to come?---yet, another swinging door.
Oh, here's a profound thought: maybe they are both the same door! Oh, wouldn't that make life interesting...or confusing.
All right, I'm sorry for the long post...but that's all I've got for today.
~mitzi
Saturday, February 11, 2006
this morning's happenings...
#1
I woke up to a surprise: SNOW! The first words I said after waking up: "No way."...Well, "WAY!" It is snowing here in where I live and I simply cannot believe it. This is indeed Kansas weather. A few days ago I was walking around in merely a hooded sweatshirt and jeans...and now I'm bundled up with a scarf, winter coat, and thick gloves. The funnies thing is that last night I turn the heat in my room down and opened the window because the thermostat in the building where I live is completely insane. Way too hot in the winter and way too cool in the summer. Oh well, I really should not complain.
#2
This quick change in the weather has once again reminded me of the metal in my leg. Almost three and half years ago, I broke my leg, had surgery, and was on crutches for eight weeks. As a souvenir from this delightful experience...I have a metal plate and 5 screws in my lower right leg along my tibia bone. I often forget about the whole thing...until the weather quickly changes and the metal in my leg either swells or contracts...good times
#3
In my room, I have candle wax "burner"...which basically just melts the wax of a candle with lighting it. So you get the aroma without the flame. In my attempt to clean up my area of the room...I knock over the "burner" allowing the melted wax to cascade down onto my loveseat. Now, the color of my loveseat is a burnt orange (attractive...I know) and the candle was "apricot" scent so...it basically matches. I am currently debating whether to leave the wax on or off. Ha. That just brought memories of the Karate Kid..."wax on, wax off"...hmmm.
#4
I went to Mass this morning. Always a good thing for the soul. My mind and heart are really jumbled right now...so I'm trying to somehow search for and maintain peace (and yes, I am reading the book "Searching for and Maintaining Peace" for the third time).
#5
For some reason, my hall purchase rice cakes...I remember having these as a treat when I was really young. Before I was in school, I would accompany my mom as she took my siblings to school. Then we would go to the local Dillions and pick up breakfast...and if I was lucky we would get rice cakes. It was our "little secret" from my siblings...but I guess they probably know now. Ha! Suckers! Anyhow, I enjoyed a chocolate rice cake this morning...and while it doesn't have really any taste and borders on cardboard...there is something about going back to childhood foods.
I woke up to a surprise: SNOW! The first words I said after waking up: "No way."...Well, "WAY!" It is snowing here in where I live and I simply cannot believe it. This is indeed Kansas weather. A few days ago I was walking around in merely a hooded sweatshirt and jeans...and now I'm bundled up with a scarf, winter coat, and thick gloves. The funnies thing is that last night I turn the heat in my room down and opened the window because the thermostat in the building where I live is completely insane. Way too hot in the winter and way too cool in the summer. Oh well, I really should not complain.
#2
This quick change in the weather has once again reminded me of the metal in my leg. Almost three and half years ago, I broke my leg, had surgery, and was on crutches for eight weeks. As a souvenir from this delightful experience...I have a metal plate and 5 screws in my lower right leg along my tibia bone. I often forget about the whole thing...until the weather quickly changes and the metal in my leg either swells or contracts...good times
#3
In my room, I have candle wax "burner"...which basically just melts the wax of a candle with lighting it. So you get the aroma without the flame. In my attempt to clean up my area of the room...I knock over the "burner" allowing the melted wax to cascade down onto my loveseat. Now, the color of my loveseat is a burnt orange (attractive...I know) and the candle was "apricot" scent so...it basically matches. I am currently debating whether to leave the wax on or off. Ha. That just brought memories of the Karate Kid..."wax on, wax off"...hmmm.
#4
I went to Mass this morning. Always a good thing for the soul. My mind and heart are really jumbled right now...so I'm trying to somehow search for and maintain peace (and yes, I am reading the book "Searching for and Maintaining Peace" for the third time).
#5
For some reason, my hall purchase rice cakes...I remember having these as a treat when I was really young. Before I was in school, I would accompany my mom as she took my siblings to school. Then we would go to the local Dillions and pick up breakfast...and if I was lucky we would get rice cakes. It was our "little secret" from my siblings...but I guess they probably know now. Ha! Suckers! Anyhow, I enjoyed a chocolate rice cake this morning...and while it doesn't have really any taste and borders on cardboard...there is something about going back to childhood foods.
Monday, February 06, 2006
jack johnson
A friend of mine put together a 3-4 minute flim-clip that had the images of probably over 100 results of abortions. It was truly powerful, even though I had seen the images before in numerous pamphlets regarding the TRUTH about abortion. The thing about this particular presentation was the lyrics in the music accompanying the images. It was Jack Johnson's "Cookie Jar". I have to say that Jack Johnson is definitely one of my favorite musical artists because of his smooth melodies and profound lyrics. One stanza of his poetry from "Cookie Jar":
"It was you, it was me, it was every manI guess it just made sense with the pro-LIFE movement that has surrounded my life for the past years (in particular the past few weeks). While I don't know where I'm going with my life (career fair is tomorrow! fingers crossed!)...I know I have to keep fighting this inhumanity....because truly: "we only recieve what we demand"...of course all in HIS time.
We've all got the blood on our hands
We only receive what we demand
And if we want hell then hell's what we'll have"
Thursday, February 02, 2006
mr. sloan...
One of my high school teachers died last week. He was only 55 and I only had him for one class...but he was definitely a character and I always wondered why he chose teaching as his profession. I had him first semester senior year for first hour 20th century literature. I remember getting an A+ on my term paper for that class, even though I didn't read any of the books that I discussed in the paper...go figure. Anyhow, every Friday just before our morning class would be dismissed by the bell, Mr. Sloan would give us a tiny bit of wisdom...and each week he would do this, constantly adding on to the weeks of advice prior to that particular Friday. In the end, here's the whole deal:
"Remember, if you drive, don't drink;
and if you drink, don't drive;
if you chug, don't choke;
if you smoke, don't toke;
if you toke, don't inhale (thank you, former President Clinton!);
if you snort, don't sneeze;
if you mainline don't miss;
if you free base, don't burn;
if you do acid, stay placid;
if you cruise don't crash;
if you park, don't pet;
if you kiss, don't tell;
if you French, don't bite;
if you peck, don't hickey;
if you flirt, don't tease;
if you tease don't laugh;
and if you truly love, do not exchange bodily fluids!"
- Art Sloan
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
news...
I'm sure I'll post more on my pilgrimage later...but here's a taste:
http://www.6newslawrence.com/news/2006/jan/24/ku_students_travel_rightlife_rally/
http://www.6newslawrence.com/news/2006/jan/24/ku_students_travel_rightlife_rally/
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
LIFE...
In exactly 48 hours...I will be on a bus headed to Washington, D.C. for the March for LIFE!! There's so much to do in these next few hours...but it will all be worth it. Please keep me, my 4 leaders, and the other 120 students going with us in your thoughts and prayers!
Friday, December 23, 2005
christmas letter...
So, my parents are sending out the traditional Christmas Letter...and normally they sign my name at the bottom along with all of my siblings and siblings-in-law. However, this year it is just signed by their names...no Mitzi. So I've decided to write my own Christmas Letter. There's not a whole lot going on, but perhaps it will give some insight as to what has happened in my life in the past year...rather than the three to four sentences that my father writes in the family's letter.
Merry Christmas and a Blessed New Year to all!
It has been quite a year in my life with so many changes and experiences that will be unforgettable. A year ago in January, I participated in the first-ever Veritas Convention in Wichita, KS. The convention brought together several Catholic student leaders across the Big XII and by the end of the convention...it came about that I would be coordinating next year's convention at KU. So in T minus 2 days, Veritas 2006 will commence! A few weeks later in the month of January, I helped lead about 120 student to Washington, D.C. for the March for LIFE and discovered my passion for the LIFE movement. It suddenly hit me that this movement would be a part of the rest of my life. It is my apostolate. So with that, I applied for and received the position of the March for LIFE Student Coordinator at St. Lawrence and will be leaving in 18 days for D.C. with about 130 students! I know it will be an unbelievable experience and I ask for your prayers for the success of this pilgrimage!
In February, I was blessed to become an aunt to both a niece and nephew. While it is amazing in itself to be an aunt, the true amazement is watching my sister and my brother along with their spouses become parents. I only hope that someday I can do the same. I was also blessed to become the Godmother of my niece in early April...this title I will always hold close to my heart.
May came and went so quickly that I could hardly believe that my junior year of college was over and I was a senior...but there was little time to think about that as the family prepared for my sister's wedding in early June. It was certainly the event of the summer and brought together the whole family once again before we all parted ways in August. My brother was deployed to Iraq and my newly married sister and her husband made the move to their new home in Ohio.
So as my senior year began in the middle of August it was certainly an adjusting period to figure out where my life was headed after all my siblings had started their new lives. The fall semester kept me busy though. I returned to my position in my hall and found that I would be doing more work than my job description described...but isn't that always the case. I began my coordinating of both the Veritas Convention and the March for LIFE...both of which became the things that I loved to do as the semester went on...even with all the hardships that have come with both of them.
A few of the highlights of the semester would be: my Fall Break trip to Ohio, hanging out with my favorite niece and her parents in KC on a day that I just needed to get away from everything, the free Neil Diamond concert in December w/ my sister and brother-in-law, raising over $9,000 dollars for the March for LIFE, and realizing that I only have one more semester left of college.
To answer the question of what I'm doing after graduation this coming May...you'll just have to wait until next year's letter. I don't know what I will be doing. I feel that I want to stay close to home because I know I'm not ready to move halfway across the country...but time will tell and hopefully I'll know before I graduate as to where I'll be. Until then, I'll be here and I'm happy with that.
Love,
Mitzi
Merry Christmas and a Blessed New Year to all!
It has been quite a year in my life with so many changes and experiences that will be unforgettable. A year ago in January, I participated in the first-ever Veritas Convention in Wichita, KS. The convention brought together several Catholic student leaders across the Big XII and by the end of the convention...it came about that I would be coordinating next year's convention at KU. So in T minus 2 days, Veritas 2006 will commence! A few weeks later in the month of January, I helped lead about 120 student to Washington, D.C. for the March for LIFE and discovered my passion for the LIFE movement. It suddenly hit me that this movement would be a part of the rest of my life. It is my apostolate. So with that, I applied for and received the position of the March for LIFE Student Coordinator at St. Lawrence and will be leaving in 18 days for D.C. with about 130 students! I know it will be an unbelievable experience and I ask for your prayers for the success of this pilgrimage!
In February, I was blessed to become an aunt to both a niece and nephew. While it is amazing in itself to be an aunt, the true amazement is watching my sister and my brother along with their spouses become parents. I only hope that someday I can do the same. I was also blessed to become the Godmother of my niece in early April...this title I will always hold close to my heart.
May came and went so quickly that I could hardly believe that my junior year of college was over and I was a senior...but there was little time to think about that as the family prepared for my sister's wedding in early June. It was certainly the event of the summer and brought together the whole family once again before we all parted ways in August. My brother was deployed to Iraq and my newly married sister and her husband made the move to their new home in Ohio.
So as my senior year began in the middle of August it was certainly an adjusting period to figure out where my life was headed after all my siblings had started their new lives. The fall semester kept me busy though. I returned to my position in my hall and found that I would be doing more work than my job description described...but isn't that always the case. I began my coordinating of both the Veritas Convention and the March for LIFE...both of which became the things that I loved to do as the semester went on...even with all the hardships that have come with both of them.
A few of the highlights of the semester would be: my Fall Break trip to Ohio, hanging out with my favorite niece and her parents in KC on a day that I just needed to get away from everything, the free Neil Diamond concert in December w/ my sister and brother-in-law, raising over $9,000 dollars for the March for LIFE, and realizing that I only have one more semester left of college.
To answer the question of what I'm doing after graduation this coming May...you'll just have to wait until next year's letter. I don't know what I will be doing. I feel that I want to stay close to home because I know I'm not ready to move halfway across the country...but time will tell and hopefully I'll know before I graduate as to where I'll be. Until then, I'll be here and I'm happy with that.
Love,
Mitzi
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
can't sleep...
So it is now waaaaay past my bedtime that I normally have during the semester and I can't sleep. It is not because I was out "late" either. I was falling asleep on the couch while watching CSI: Las Vegas, decided to go to bed, and now I'm here at the computer blogging. I guess my life has really come to this...
I know why I can't sleep though. I'm stressing out about the things I'm in charge of. I'm planning a mini-convention for Catholic students from the Big XII schools. It is only a little over 2 weeks away and I'm kind of freaking out about it. I know in my heart it is worth it, but sometimes I wonder if anyone else thinks that as well...and then when I think that everyone is just "going along" because they feel they have to...then I start to doubt myself.
I'm also heading up the pilgrimage that my church takes to D.C. for the March for Life. I was a leader last year and now this year I'm a coordinator. I don't know if I have really done that much more than when I was a leader...but for some reason I'm in charge. I can look back at the past few months and I can see everything I've done, but I don't know if I've done enough or if I'm still making the 'best' decisions. And now as the trip draws closers...more decisions have to be made and I doubt myself with every step I take...
I mean I can barely figure out what I want to eat for lunch let alone try to figure out how to keep over a hundred college students together for 5 days. Oh well.
I know HE'll help me out. That's probably what my problem is...I just don't ask. There was a priest in Oklahoma a few years back that said Mass on the base where my brother was stationed. I remember the homily word for word because it was short and to the point. The priest told us that in any situation we should always say, "I can't. HE can. I'll let HIM." Something to think about...
I know why I can't sleep though. I'm stressing out about the things I'm in charge of. I'm planning a mini-convention for Catholic students from the Big XII schools. It is only a little over 2 weeks away and I'm kind of freaking out about it. I know in my heart it is worth it, but sometimes I wonder if anyone else thinks that as well...and then when I think that everyone is just "going along" because they feel they have to...then I start to doubt myself.
I'm also heading up the pilgrimage that my church takes to D.C. for the March for Life. I was a leader last year and now this year I'm a coordinator. I don't know if I have really done that much more than when I was a leader...but for some reason I'm in charge. I can look back at the past few months and I can see everything I've done, but I don't know if I've done enough or if I'm still making the 'best' decisions. And now as the trip draws closers...more decisions have to be made and I doubt myself with every step I take...
I mean I can barely figure out what I want to eat for lunch let alone try to figure out how to keep over a hundred college students together for 5 days. Oh well.
I know HE'll help me out. That's probably what my problem is...I just don't ask. There was a priest in Oklahoma a few years back that said Mass on the base where my brother was stationed. I remember the homily word for word because it was short and to the point. The priest told us that in any situation we should always say, "I can't. HE can. I'll let HIM." Something to think about...
Saturday, December 17, 2005
an additional note...
I would like to publicly thank my sister and brother-in-law (Katie and Robert) who offered me the tickets to the Neil Diamond concert, paid for my Chipotle dinner, and drove me to the concert. I am truly blessed to have such wonderful relatives.
I apologize for not noting this in the previous "neil..." post.
I apologize for not noting this in the previous "neil..." post.
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
neil...
Last night, by luck I got free tickets to the Neil Diamond concert. Now, I would not say I'm an avid fan...but I do enjoy a "Sweet Caroline" or "America" every now and then -- and really who doesn't? Come on it's NEIL DIAMOND!!! Probably the best part about the concert was the fact that I was easily one of the youngest people in attendance. There was a strange amount of gray hair in the audience, but no matter what color hair...we all were there for the same reason.
Here are a few of my favorite lyrics from Mr. Diamond's repertoire:
" I'd have sworn that with time
Thoughts of you would leave my head
I was wrong, and I find
Just one thing makes me forget...RED RED WINE"
"Some little girl'll catch you nappin'
Some little girl will get to you with her kiss"
"I thank the Lord for the night time
To forget the day
A day of up, uptight time
Baby, chase it away"
"Friend, have you seen glory road?
Say, friend, I got a heavy load
And I know glory road's waiting for me
Rest my load,
Now I know glory road won't set me free"
" don't want much
The good Lord's earth beneath my feet
A gentle touch
From that one girl,
And life is sweet and good
Ain't no doubt, I'm talkin' about ...Kentucky woman"
"Money talks
But it don't sing and dance
And it don't walk
And long as I can have you
Here with me, I'd much rather be
Forever in blue jeans"
"Hands, touchin' hands
Reachin' out, touchin' me touchin' you
Sweet Caroline {whoa, whoa, whoa}
Good times never seemed so good {so good, so good, so good}"
"My country 'tis of thee (today)
Sweet land of liberty (today)
Of thee I sing (today)
Of thee I sing
Today, Today, Today
Today, today, today......"
Here are a few of my favorite lyrics from Mr. Diamond's repertoire:
" I'd have sworn that with time
Thoughts of you would leave my head
I was wrong, and I find
Just one thing makes me forget...RED RED WINE"
"Some little girl'll catch you nappin'
Some little girl will get to you with her kiss"
"I thank the Lord for the night time
To forget the day
A day of up, uptight time
Baby, chase it away"
"Friend, have you seen glory road?
Say, friend, I got a heavy load
And I know glory road's waiting for me
Rest my load,
Now I know glory road won't set me free"
" don't want much
The good Lord's earth beneath my feet
A gentle touch
From that one girl,
And life is sweet and good
Ain't no doubt, I'm talkin' about ...Kentucky woman"
"Money talks
But it don't sing and dance
And it don't walk
And long as I can have you
Here with me, I'd much rather be
Forever in blue jeans"
"Hands, touchin' hands
Reachin' out, touchin' me touchin' you
Sweet Caroline {whoa, whoa, whoa}
Good times never seemed so good {so good, so good, so good}"
"My country 'tis of thee (today)
Sweet land of liberty (today)
Of thee I sing (today)
Of thee I sing
Today, Today, Today
Today, today, today......"
Friday, December 02, 2005
my last friday...
Today is the last Friday that I will ever have classes. I don't have class on Fridays next semester...so today is it. From here on -- my college career will be filled with three-day weekends! Plus, I just found out from my boss that I won't be working on Fridays either next semester...what will I do? ...well here are a few possibilities...
- Volunteer with Jim Ryun's campaign...therefore getting my foot in the political arena
- Be able to actually volunteer at Jubilee Cafe here in Lawrence
- Sleep in -- because I'll be dancing all Thursday night long!
- Formulate my job search
- Actually search for a job
- Sleep
- Work out (get ready sisters: we're having a day at the spa!!)
- Take road trips with my roommate...
- Enjoy my last semester as a college student
- Maliciously laugh at all the students walking up 14th street to go to class
- Post my life's story on this blog...
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
things i'm thankful for...
I know it is past the "Thanksgiving" time and we are now quickly heading towards Christmas...but I just thought I would comply a list...enjoy...
- my family
- my friends
- my faith
- my foam mattress pad that is keeping the springs in my actually mattress from injurying me
- $.05 off of unleaded gasoline w/ my dillon's plus card
- indoor plumbing and toilet paper
- clean sheets
- clean clothes
- people who make me laugh out loud
- my residents who do their shifts without complaining
- sunday brunch with my parents...especially when grits are involved
- swing dancing
- music that i can sing along with
- letsingit.com -- so that i can memorize lyrics in order to do #14 {edit: #13}
- good movies
- kansas weather that allows me to experience every extreme
- breaking my leg -- giving me a new outlook on life
- people who aren't afraid to stand up for what they believe in
- my cell phone that let's me stay in touch with those close and far away
- the outdoor life network's coverage of the tour de france -- how else would i make it through july?
Friday, November 18, 2005
why i don't want to go to graduate school...
As the semester comes to a close with only 12 days of class left, 5 papers due, 2 class presentations, 3 finals, 1 pilgrimage to plan, and 1 convention to plan...the questions about what I'm doing "next year" (meaning post graduation) are coming out of no where from people I don't even know! Let it be clear, that it is fine for the family to constantly query about my future and my fellow May graduates as well...but if you are a freshmen, stranger, or some one who is not even remotely close to me or my family...then be quiet and mind your own business. Keeping this all in mind, I have taken a closer look as to why I do not want to attend graduate school. This does not mean that I disapprove of those who have/are/will attend(ed/ing) graduate school. I do understand this completely. Just as college is for some and not for others...so is graduate school. I just wish the modern world would figure this out! Now on to my reasons:
- I'm done with class. I'm sick of jumping through hoops with my professors just to get a letter on my transcript. What does that really show? That I was able to answer 50 multiple choice questions? Great.
- I'm ready to do something more. Everyone keeps telling me that I'm going to do so much for something...someday...so why should I put this off and have more debt than I already have?
- I really don't like the graduate students that I have in my classes. Because of the way the Political Science department is set up, I have to take 500 and 600 level courses for all my jr/sr major credit hours...therefore there's bound to be at least 1 or 2 grad students in there and they all think they are better/smarter/prettier than the rest of us measly undergrads. Wait...scratch that. They think they are better/smarter/prettier because I have conservative opinions on several political/social issues.
- I'm done with class...again!
- I have been working and going to school since the second semester of my kindergarten year. I think it might be time for a change.
Maybe that's it...I'm just ready for a change and I don't believe that graduate school is enough of a change. Or maybe I'm just bitter towards not knowing exactly what I'm doing after graduation...hmmm...
Friday, November 11, 2005
veteran's day...
Dear Soldier,
If I could take your hand tonight
I would hold onto you so very tight
Standing guard over you… this time
Until the early morning light
When the sun should rise tomorrow
If I could… I would be there by your side
For when the winds of sand and dust should blow
I would gladly shield your face and eyes
When your mouth should become dry
As you journey through the desert heat
I would be there in a heartbeat, the very first
Offering my last drop of water to quench your needed thirst
Through the cheering, and whispered words of love
The waving of our Red, White and Blue
As family and friends held you so near
You wiped away their frightened tears
For when we needed you
You stood firm… never flinching
Many seeing the pride within your heart and eyes
Like the mighty eagle that soars
Above our American skies
I know there are moments
That you will never let us see
Like those of fear and loneliness
Still I see great soldiers… fulfilling their duties
With heads held high, and there we witness...
Great pride, honor and dignity
When tonight the sun should set
As you are sitting among the many others…
Sometimes feeling alone
Thinking of your loved ones
You miss so much back home
Please remember…
There are many here... that love you so
Those whose hearts shall never forget
Being so very proud of everything you’ve done
People that pray day and night for your safe return
All I can do right now, Dear Soldier...
Is bow my head in humble thanks again
Asking our Heavenly Father, above
In guiding and protecting you, no matter where duty calls
In bringing you safely back to your home
Into the arms of those you love
By Brenda Conley © 2003
If I could take your hand tonight
I would hold onto you so very tight
Standing guard over you… this time
Until the early morning light
When the sun should rise tomorrow
If I could… I would be there by your side
For when the winds of sand and dust should blow
I would gladly shield your face and eyes
When your mouth should become dry
As you journey through the desert heat
I would be there in a heartbeat, the very first
Offering my last drop of water to quench your needed thirst
Through the cheering, and whispered words of love
The waving of our Red, White and Blue
As family and friends held you so near
You wiped away their frightened tears
For when we needed you
You stood firm… never flinching
Many seeing the pride within your heart and eyes
Like the mighty eagle that soars
Above our American skies
I know there are moments
That you will never let us see
Like those of fear and loneliness
Still I see great soldiers… fulfilling their duties
With heads held high, and there we witness...
Great pride, honor and dignity
When tonight the sun should set
As you are sitting among the many others…
Sometimes feeling alone
Thinking of your loved ones
You miss so much back home
Please remember…
There are many here... that love you so
Those whose hearts shall never forget
Being so very proud of everything you’ve done
People that pray day and night for your safe return
All I can do right now, Dear Soldier...
Is bow my head in humble thanks again
Asking our Heavenly Father, above
In guiding and protecting you, no matter where duty calls
In bringing you safely back to your home
Into the arms of those you love
By Brenda Conley © 2003
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
cypress tree...
Apparently, we each have a tree that we fall from...crazy, I know! However, according to my birthday I am a "Cypress Tree" and here's what that means...
Cypress Tree (the Faithfulness) -- strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed.
Thursday, November 03, 2005
le tour
Le route is set for Le Tour de France 2006...and check out le new poster for le Tour...appropriate after le departure of le 7-time champion Lance Armstrong? Oui!
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
brownback '06 or '08
So there have been rumors floating around about Senator Sam Brownback (R-KS) possibly throwing his hat in for the 2008 election...apparently there are reports that he has said that he will not run for re-election in 2010...so there are a few possibilities that I can see from my political science expertise:
- Brownback for KS Governor in 2006?
- Brownback for President in 2008?
- Brownback for VP in 2008?
Monday, October 31, 2005
in her shoes...
Besides the turmoil of school, impending graduation, my hall, a Big XII convention that I'm organizing, and the unexplainable factors of heading up the March for Life...I think I found some time to sleep last night. I'm currently gearing up for Two Test Tuesday (tomorrow)...almost as exciting as Taco Tuesday as Taco John's, but without the spicy salsa...and two tacos.
Anyhow... I saw the film "In Her Shoes" this weekend and I have to say that it might make my list of favorites. I will definitely own this movie...that's is once I have enough money to buy anything that doesn't involve writing a check to Cingular wireless or American Family Insurance...
Back to the movie...it dealt with so many different levels of relationships from family to friends to "more-than-just" friends and how we should really cherish the people around us, even if they make us crazy! Guys, it is definitely a chick-flick...so watch out for the sappy moments and be sure to bring along some tissues!
Anyhow... I saw the film "In Her Shoes" this weekend and I have to say that it might make my list of favorites. I will definitely own this movie...that's is once I have enough money to buy anything that doesn't involve writing a check to Cingular wireless or American Family Insurance...Back to the movie...it dealt with so many different levels of relationships from family to friends to "more-than-just" friends and how we should really cherish the people around us, even if they make us crazy! Guys, it is definitely a chick-flick...so watch out for the sappy moments and be sure to bring along some tissues!
Monday, October 24, 2005
googlism.com
A friend of mine introduced me to "googlism.com" in which you can type anything in and it will search the web for anything that involves what that thing "is"...i.e. "mitzi". While many of the of the things involved favorite dogs and cats, here are some of my favorites!
Googlism for: mitzi
mitzi is too shy around strangers
mitzi is one such artist
mitzi is in the sixth grade
mitzi is now combining her acting expertise with the experience she gained directing episodes of silk stalkings to develop projects of her own
mitzi is the woman every woman wants to be
mitzi is doing real good
mitzi is a female siamese ferret
mitzi is gone
mitzi is on stage
mitzi is already in the ring
mitzi is not himself
mitzi is falling in love
mitzi is a welterweight champion
mitzi is also reported to be working on her own screenplay
mitzi is gonna meet you over at jack's with the key
mitzi is still working harder than ever to make her dream a reality
mitzi is the only child on the picture
mitzi is also very active on campus in volunteer and mentoring activities
mitzi is currently a member of the national speakers association
mitzi is the best dog ever
mitzi is the *noisy* boxer at our house
mitzi is the boat that will do what i want better than the others
mitzi is hired
mitzi is a calico cat
mitzi is a natural beauty with wonderful skin and is a sheer joy to photograph
mitzi is not afraid to write a pop song
mitzi is the "first" doll in the children of the world series
mitzi is a delight to work with and i would not trade her in for the world
mitzi is extremely important to antiques & collectibles at the twilight zone
mitzi is our friendly tabby girl
mitzi is so cute
mitzi is a witch who likes creepy things
mitzi is also a member of the national cowgirl hall of fame
Googlism for: mitzi
mitzi is too shy around strangers
mitzi is one such artist
mitzi is in the sixth grade
mitzi is now combining her acting expertise with the experience she gained directing episodes of silk stalkings to develop projects of her own
mitzi is the woman every woman wants to be
mitzi is doing real good
mitzi is a female siamese ferret
mitzi is gone
mitzi is on stage
mitzi is already in the ring
mitzi is not himself
mitzi is falling in love
mitzi is a welterweight champion
mitzi is also reported to be working on her own screenplay
mitzi is gonna meet you over at jack's with the key
mitzi is still working harder than ever to make her dream a reality
mitzi is the only child on the picture
mitzi is also very active on campus in volunteer and mentoring activities
mitzi is currently a member of the national speakers association
mitzi is the best dog ever
mitzi is the *noisy* boxer at our house
mitzi is the boat that will do what i want better than the others
mitzi is hired
mitzi is a calico cat
mitzi is a natural beauty with wonderful skin and is a sheer joy to photograph
mitzi is not afraid to write a pop song
mitzi is the "first" doll in the children of the world series
mitzi is a delight to work with and i would not trade her in for the world
mitzi is extremely important to antiques & collectibles at the twilight zone
mitzi is our friendly tabby girl
mitzi is so cute
mitzi is a witch who likes creepy things
mitzi is also a member of the national cowgirl hall of fame
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
swing state
Fall break is here and I'm ready for it. I feel like I have been constantly running these past six weeks of the school year...time for a break. I'm headed to Ohio for the next few days to chill with my sister and her husband....so...here's to family, to friends, to safe flights, to on-time flights, and to forgetting about responsibility for four days!
Monday, October 10, 2005
Digger...
After a weekend of family, I came back home to my hall and found Digger, a little stuffed animal shaped like a dog with the markings of a Dalmatian, on my desk. To those who do not know about the traditions of my hall: Digger is the only male resident and is the prize possession of the woman who gets to keep him until the next hall meeting. Digger is friendly, always listens, and while he doesn't play catch...he is pretty darn good at the oh-so-popular "staring game" (where I find myself impersonating Will Ferrell's SNL sketch of Robert Goulet..."you win, you always do").
Anyhow, how does one get the chance to have Digger? Well, it is quite an honor. The woman in the hall who had him before chooses who gets him next for some specific reason. It could be "she helped me push my car through the snow" or "she gave a me hug when I really need one" or in my case "because she (being me) does so much for the hall and we (the rest of the hall) wanted to let her (me) know that we (the hall) appreciate her (me)".
I can't lie...seeing Digger on my desk with a little note telling me why I was the privileged one to have him for these next few weeks brought tears to my eyes. It is amazing how much a little stuffed Dalmatian can do for you.
Saturday, October 08, 2005
for the buschelmans...
After a month of not updating this blog...I will once again begin my blogging .
I cannot promise much, but at least something will be here for those who chose to read about my thoughts and deeds.
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