It's funny how things in life will mimic your feelings inside. Actually, it is probably not that funny and more or less "duh! Mitzi, of course they mimic your feelings inside". Anyhow, yesterday I after taking my chances with the low-gas-light in my car...I ran out of gas. Thankfully, my gracious parents have me on their motor club card and therefore, I was able to get assistance within 40 minutes. The funny thing is that I was headed to the gas station and then to Adoration for a little Jesus time before settling in to watch the women's figure skating finals. But, I ran out of gas and so did my Jesus time while waiting for Hillcrest Wrecker to come to my rescue with a gallon of gasoline. I don't know if any of you checked out yesterday's meditation from In Conversation w/ God...but let me tell you...it certainly kicked my butt. The entire thing was how no matter what: Heaven is our goal. Therefore, whatever obstacles that are in our way of that goal...need to be pushed aside. And whatever paths lead us closer to that goal...need to be taken. Of course this means sacrifice...so I guess this is my new discernment. What do I sacrifice to bring me closer to Heaven?
Right now, I feel like I'm out of gas...and I definitely need to filled-up. I feel like I'm just watching things go by as if I'm out on some road just waiting for someone to stop and help me out...but maybe I just need to start walking.
I'm going on a retreat next weekend, but I'm a little nervous about it. It is with St. Lawrence and I've been a part of it the past two times that it has happened because it is geared towards the younger folks who are not as involved in order to welcome them into the community or Koinonia. But the team wants me to go as a participant. I know there's a reason why I'm going and retreats are always good for the soul. I guess I'm just afraid about what might happen...what will God speak to me?...and will I understand?...will I be able to follow through and do what HE asks of me?...because frankly, I'm not understanding right now...I'm out of gas. I know I shouldn't worry because ultimately...HE wants us all to happy...and all we have to do for that is to trust HIM. A friend of mine told me something along these lines...to worry not and to fear not because tomorrow brings enough worries and fears...I apologize for misquoting...but it certainly struck me.
On a positive note...the weather outside is simply beautiful. that's right...the flip-flops are coming out!!
~mitzi
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Sounds like someone is due for Lent! Ah, the beauty of the Lenten season...focuses us on God and what we need to do to come closer to Him. My spiritual director told me this week that I need to get rid of the bad parts and add on good parts--everything I can to be more in union with God.
I got to wear shorts yesterday, the weather was so nice!
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