my life is a sitcom...

I'm sure many people think this as well...but sometimes I think my life is a sitcom. And now it is...

Last night as I was watching "Grey's Anatomy", I saw a preview for the pilot episode for "What About Brian"...here's the tagline:

What about Brian? Of his close-knit group of friends, everyone else has paired off, while Brian has emerged as the last bachelor standing. At 34, regardless of his run of bad luck in matters of the heart, Brian still holds out hope that one day he'll open the door and be blinded by love. However questions about his fate have been popping up more frequently in his head. The most pressing question is – and it's one that only he can answer -- could all of his problems stem from the fact that he is harboring a crush on the picture-perfect Marjorie, his best friend's girl?

Granted it is a male and his name is Brian...but come on!! Okay...so maybe not my life entirely, because of my "paired-off" friends...I'm not harboring any crushes on my best friends' guys (because they are my brothers-in-law...and while I love them...I don't love them like that). Okay...so maybe it is not exactly my life...but close? right? hmmm...just a thought.

I'm still waiting on interviews...applications are out and I've made the calls that I can...I'm really in limbo and I almost want to start a group for us limbo folks to come together and discuss our limboness...although when one of us finally is out of limbo then the rest of us will just be bitter and reject the non-limbo person. I don't think my purpose in life is to breed bitterness, so I'll just keep it to myself.

The only thing that is helping me through all of this is a litany that a friend of mine was talking about a few weeks ago. I'll post it here in case any of you need a little prayer to kick you in the butt. It was written by Rafael Cardinal Merry del Val (1865-1930) who was the Secretary of State for Pope Saint Pius X.

Litany of Humilty

O Jesus! meek and humble of heart, Hear me.
From the desire of being esteemed,
Deliver me, Jesus.

From the desire of being loved...
From the desire of being extolled ...
From the desire of being honored ...
From the desire of being praised ...
From the desire of being preferred to others...
From the desire of being consulted ...
From the desire of being approved ...
From the fear of being humiliated ...
From the fear of being despised...
From the fear of suffering rebukes ...
From the fear of being calumniated ...
From the fear of being forgotten ...
From the fear of being ridiculed ...
From the fear of being wronged ...
From the fear of being suspected ...

That others may be loved more than I,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.

That others may be esteemed more than I ...
That, in the opinion of the world, others may increase and I may decrease ...
That others may be chosen and I set aside ...
That others may be praised and I unnoticed ...
That others may be preferred to me in everything...
That others may become holier than I, provided that I may become as holy as I should…

Amen.

~mitzi