can't sleep...

So it is now waaaaay past my bedtime that I normally have during the semester and I can't sleep. It is not because I was out "late" either. I was falling asleep on the couch while watching CSI: Las Vegas, decided to go to bed, and now I'm here at the computer blogging. I guess my life has really come to this...

I know why I can't sleep though. I'm stressing out about the things I'm in charge of. I'm planning a mini-convention for Catholic students from the Big XII schools. It is only a little over 2 weeks away and I'm kind of freaking out about it. I know in my heart it is worth it, but sometimes I wonder if anyone else thinks that as well...and then when I think that everyone is just "going along" because they feel they have to...then I start to doubt myself.

I'm also heading up the pilgrimage that my church takes to D.C. for the March for Life. I was a leader last year and now this year I'm a coordinator. I don't know if I have really done that much more than when I was a leader...but for some reason I'm in charge. I can look back at the past few months and I can see everything I've done, but I don't know if I've done enough or if I'm still making the 'best' decisions. And now as the trip draws closers...more decisions have to be made and I doubt myself with every step I take...

I mean I can barely figure out what I want to eat for lunch let alone try to figure out how to keep over a hundred college students together for 5 days. Oh well.

I know HE'll help me out. That's probably what my problem is...I just don't ask. There was a priest in Oklahoma a few years back that said Mass on the base where my brother was stationed. I remember the homily word for word because it was short and to the point. The priest told us that in any situation we should always say, "I can't. HE can. I'll let HIM." Something to think about...